Daily Meditation: Have Faith and Obedience to that Faith

One of my daily meditation books talked about a subject near and dear to my heart:

“There are two things that we must have if we are going to change our way of life.  One is faith, the confidence in things unseen, the fundamental goodness and purpose in the universe.  THe other is obedience: that is, living according to our faith, living each day as we believe that God wants us to live, with gratitude, humility, honesty, purity, uselfishness, and love.”

I have said that we need to follow our intuition, even when it is telling us to make the hard decision or more difficult path.  But, I like the way this words it – an obedience to living as God (the universe, Karma, fate, whatever you believe in) would want us to live.

Do the right things for the right reasons.

This is my truth, by the way.  When I have faith in my soul and I am doing my best to walk on the right path – doors open all over for me.  I don’t have to direct everything in my life.  There is a flow and I just show up.  For somebody that has been surrounded by kaos and anxiety, much of my life, it is a very nice place to be.

Colorful Steps


We are breaking ground on a passion project! My partner, Christion, had a great idea for the name… Colorful Steps.

The people that we have met in the desert are on their own colorful paths to healing and spirituality. We have been planning, for some time, how to provide a place that promotes the values that we have seen growing in ourselves and those around us. Below is a write up on the video, of our plans there, and a video walking you through the plans.

Enjoy, and we hope to see you there!!

We are breaking ground at the future home of Colorful Steps. Colorful Steps is a spiritual retreat to connect to your spirituality, find joy, peace, and centeredness.

We all fight battles or get stuck in our own ruts. I once became completely disconnected from my spirituality and lived a life of anxiety, narcissism, and unhappiness. I was chasing all the wrong ideas and my value system was misguided.

When I began taking steps to connecting, spiritually, doors began to open all over the place and I was led to the desert. It was here that I connected to Christian and I saw his vision for this land. The energy was amazing in this place and I felt a strong peace in my soul.

We want to develope this land into a retreat that fosters growth in all areas – to be whole, complete , and happy. As the community comes together, we see a vision of the different colors and ideas gowing this place into it’s own path. We have learned from the people here, that are bright in their own colorful way, that when a community of spriitual minded indiviuals finds trust to open up to eachother – growth on all platforms is unavoidable. We saw this in action at Three Moons, nearby, over a campfire playing homemade instruments and sharing stories. We have had some of our best inflection while meditating amungst the view of the mountains that surrounds the valley. We have found connections and love in our hearts that continues to grow.

As we build the first few guest houses, we would like to open this place to those who would like to learn the art and construction of building earth houses, tiny homes, nursery, and other skills that can be taken home along with a piece of the spirit of the desert.

Daily Quote/Meditation – “Pause before responding to people or situations…”

This morning’s reading had me thinking…  do I consistently pause before responding to people or situation?

I tend to be in my head a lot; thinking, predicting what someone will say, or finding a way to twist what they said into my own perceptions.

Here is a full passage of this morning’s meditation from Jesus Calling:

“The light of My Presence is shining upon you, in benedictions of Peace.  Let My Light shine in you; don’t dim it with worries or fears.  holiness is letting Me live through you.  Since I dwell in you, you are fully equipped to be holy.  Pause before responding to people or situations, giving My Spirit space to act through you.  Hasty words and actions leave no room for Me…

To me, the meditation was saying that when we are connected spiritually our Higher Power will give us the strength to react to any situation or person with peace and wisdom.  I often 20190312_184512 that “we cannot control other people or situations, but we can control our reactions to them.”  Something I am working on practicing.  When I am doing the right things for the right reasons, following my connected intuition, and giving 100%, then I should be unwavering through my esteemable actions and faith.  Like I am wearing a shield against confrontation or the unknown.  After this morning’s reading, I will work towards taking a pause before responding so that I can respond from my wise mind instead of (as my aunt Mikki would say) my human self.

Find your Peace from within.

I made a timelaps of the sunrise, this morning. It was beautiful.

While it was filming, one of my daily meditations really hit me in the right spot. I took an excerpt from it and made this short video. The full daily is below, from the book Jesus Calling. As I have said many times, I am not a religious person. But I am very spriritual and belive it all comes from the same Devine source. With that, I am able to connect spiritually through many people, sources, and nature. ❤❤❤

“LEARN TO LIVE from your true Center in Me. I reside in the deepest depths of your being, in eternal union with your spirit. It is at this deep level that My Peace reigns continually. You will not find lasting peace in the world around you, in circumstances, or in human relationships. The external world is always in flux – under the curse of death and decay. But there is a gold mine of Peace deep within you, waiting to be tapped. Take time to delve into the riches of My resideing Presence. I want you to live increasingly from your real Center, where My Love has an eternal grip on you…”

I still can allow people or circumstances to throw off my peace and centeredness. But I am getting much better in staying connected to that true self, within, and hold tight to my faith. There are several tool I use to do this. I believe it is possible for anyone that is struggling and wants to put in the work.

Part of this, is to remind myself that I cannot change or control others, I usually can’t control my circumstances, but I can control how I let them effect me. If I continue to do the right things for the right reasons (and hold on to my faith) then I will end up where I need to be. 😊❤

Moving beyond the stormy weather.

As the storms, here, clear… I looked out over the mountains and just felt the sun warming my face. The air was so sweet. There is a calm cool breeze… as compared to the hammering, yesterday, that ripped pieces of siding off the place. Serene silence replacing the unrelenting howl and pounding rain.

Mother Nature is capable of unleashing beastly amounts of power that can destroy and wipe a landscape down to nothing. Yet, here she is, offering me a world of peace, warmth, and serenity. As if to say:

“I’m sorry that you had to witness and push through such turbulence, but I had to do my thing to keep my earth healthy and balanced. Thank you for your patience, understanding, preserverance, and unconditional love; we will have some amazing days ahead.” 🌄🌎❤

A reflection of my personal message to my family and friends, after I go through stormy periods in my own life.

Break the mold, and just be you. Whatever that may be.

There is something, about myself, that I am coming to understand and accept. I have a deep sensitivity to others and their emotions.

Some may call this empathy. It could be that I have felt pain in so many areas, that I can connect and truly understand other’s pain. I have been told, by some, that it ould be something greater than that – people who believe themselves to be gifted or Empaths. Perhaps every human has this sensitivity but chooses to numb it out – as I did for most of my life.

This, I don’t have an answer for.

What I do know, is that for most all of my life, one of my greatest joys has been to go on backpacking retreats for days at a time. To isolate and be with nature. I didn’t understand why, at the time, but it was a way for me to center myself and hit the “reset button”on my own emotional state.

It took (over) a year on the road – isolated much of the time – to plant the seed on this personal revelation. When I stayed with a friend in New York City for a few months, I could only be in the city a few days at a time. I was so overwhelmed with stimulation, that I was almost rendered useless. I didn’t feel like I could conentrate long enough to accomplish anything. After a week, I went camping in upstate New York and stayed in my tent for a month and a half. Some of the most peaceful moments in my life, there, at the edge of a farm property at the entrance to hiking trails. I only visited my friend, in the city, a few times.

Currently, I stay at my workshop for most the time in the middle of the desert. Completely isolated. I flourish here. I make progress. Make leaps and bounds in personal and spiritual growth. It is home. The only reminder that I have, that I am attached to civilization, are a few houselights twinkling in the distance, the glow of Las Vegas on a hazy night, or the line of cars driving out of the mountains towards Pharump.

It will be a while before I am ready to co-habitate with a mate, as I enjoy my solitude greatly. I value and need my time alone. When I do reach that point, that person will need to give me vast amounts of personal space – as I need it to function as a human.

I say all of this because I have so many friends that are unhappy in thier life. I think we are conditioned, beginning at an early age, that there is a certain way that we should live our lives. A particular format for relationsips. We see this mimicked in our friends and family. On TV. Magazines. Everywhere.

I have some fortunate friends, though, who have broken out of this mold.

I have so much respect for how they balance an 8 – 5 corporate job and handle responsibilies during the week. On the weekend, they deviate from the normal and travel, have adventures, and do the things they love to do. Or, friends that are in relationships where the two of them have trust and respect for eachother and encourage eachother to go do their separte hobbies and ventures. Learn from eachoher. Love that they have different interests and needs. Find a way to accept and compromise to find a balance.

If you are unhappy, in your life, then I challenge you to do something different. Don’t be held back by “what would… think” or “people would think I’m crazy…”

Find your joy. Discover your talents. Step out of the box.

No more excuses. Love the monent, find yourself, and just be you.

The foundation of my path, to happiness, is spirituality. I stay connected through gratitude, science, religion, nature, and the people that surround me – as I believe that Power and Joy is everywhere around us.

I do not believe that we have an angry God that punishes us. I do not believe that we have to go to brick and mortar places to talk to God. I do not believe, anymore, that we have to ask God for forgiveness and feel shame.

This post was inspired by recent conversations and my daily reading, which was:

Stay ever so close to me, and you will not deviate from the path I have prepared for you. This is the most efficient way to stay on track; it is also the most enjoyable way. Men tend to multiple duties in their observance of religion. This practice enables them to give Me money, time, and work without yielding up to Me what I desire the most – their hearts. Rusles can be observed mechanically. Once they become habitual, they can be followed with minimal art and almost no thought. These habit-forming rues provide a false sense of security, lulling the soul into a compote condition.

What I search for in My children is an awakened soul that thrills to the Joy of My Presence! I created mankind to glorify Me and enjoy Me forever. I provide the Joy; your part is to glorify Me by living close to Me.

I was recently talking to a few people about how I keep my zest for life. How I have been staying centered and stable, with a mood disorder that has wrecked my life repeatedly. Stayed clean and sober after a lifetime of addiction problems that tormented me.

My growing spirituality. This is the cornerstone of one of my recovery programs – where I learned to turn my will over to my Higher Power. I am not religious, by any means. What I believe in supersedes religion – was the spark that set them into existence and allowed them to evolve and grow over centuries throughout man’s existence. To me, religion is a conduit to spirituality. Another path to connect to God – in that I have an immense respect for those who have connected spiritually through religion. But, I have also met many people that are completely devoid spiritually that claim to be very religious. People who are stagnant in spiritual growth and knowingly remain in unhealthy cycles – but rationalize their bad behavior by going to church every Sunday and give their money to God. To me, this is not a path to happiness and feeling whole.

My belief is that if we show gratitude to our Higher Power, at every moment we can – then we stay connected spiritually. My landlord, and now friend, Christian said the other day, “when I am following my intuition and staying grateful – and have humility – doors open all over the place. I don’t have try and direct my life and others, I just flow with life like a leaf down a stream.”

He verbalized what I felt. Every morning I wake up and thank God for the beautiful sunrise. I ask for guidance throughout the day. Several times throughout the day I stop what I’m doing – I open my senses and soul and experience SOMETHING that I find beautiful – I thank God. When I do this, my life just flows. Sure, I have challenges that hit – but I tap into my faith that I will end up where I need to be and push through. I try to follow my intuition of what I believe to be right from wrong. Usually, I do the right thing and I do end up where I need to be. Sometimes I take the easy path and have to learn lessons from it. But, that is okay. Learning those lessons is how I get back on my path – not carrying shame or guilt and fearing punishment. Those are self-imposed human conditions.

I also read religious dailys and spirituals, that are rooted in several religions. I find messages and confirmations, there, that I am on the right path. Typically mystified that they are right in alignment with current challenges or topics of conversation. Today’s was a perfect example, from the book Jesus Calling – a book that I have been given by two different people at different times in my life. I believe that if we stay connected spiritually, through gratitude, religion, or simple conversations with friends – then we stay on our path to humility, joy, and happiness. In this comes the faith that we will be provided for and allows us to simply navigate the waters of inner peace and self-love.